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what kind of higher power would take her away, i don't know. i will miss her very much.
Was sent to the ER last night after having an abnormal EKG. They came at me with a needle and my heart rate went from 90 to 160 instantly and I set off all their alarms. I laid in a bed for two hours listening to a nurse make fun of me. They were convinced I was taking drugs. Blood test showed otherwise. They told me I need some time off. I don't really feel a trip to the ER was needed to tell me that.


I finally had the perfect place to have the wedding. Beautiful, historic, and well within our budget.
Too bad it is also super haunted and is a hub for paranormal activity. My mom will love that. I'll continue as usual unless I see a damn ghost.
I have an irrational fear of anything near or on my eye. I like to blame it on that one part in A Clockwork Orange. I decided to get contact lenses anyway... I decided that ten years of glasses was quite enough.

I spent two hours at the eye doctor, cried, used my inhaler, begged Daniel to take me home, but they are finally in my eyes. I feel like a trooper.
So Marigold, my love, you've had too much to drink
And I need not remind you, our discount tickets for this sinking ship
Take-backs and sweet regrets, that's all that we have left
No one is looking out for anyone but number one
One to one, two to dance, we all get our sweet romance
Though sour grapes will turn to wine its all just vinegar with time
And oh, I want to know, we all want to know
How can anybody treat somebody so?

She said it hurts too much
I said it will never hurt enough
No one will ever see these cuts
No one will ever call this bluff
But that's just the way that it goes
And when he left us he said, "It's not so bad"
That motherfucker he took everything we had
And when I'm thinking back, I'm counting all the ways
Nobody helped us so we dreamt of better days
And we sang: "Yeah that's just the way that it goes"

Yeah, we used to be in love (my love!), but now we're just in like
And we broke all our promises and baby that ain't right
Because you don't know what it's like to lose it all
Take it back, take it back because you don't know what it's like to be on the receiving end of it all

No! no! You were not on the receiving end of it all
You beg and plead, but no one here can save you
Why would they try when they can't quite save themselves?

So Marigold, someday we'll have to write a script
But I won't stop denying ashamed of all the selfish things we did
Dropped out of every single friendship that you had
They nearly loved you, but you never could have loved somebody back
Tell me of your sorrows; tell me everything from the start.
I'd like to do my part to help a friend in need,
I said you could come to me, but when you needed someone most, I wasn't there,

I wasn't even...


I've actually been getting a lot of reading done lately, more than I have in a while. I'm trying to get through the Sookie Stackhouse novels before I watch the rest of season one of True Blood when it comes out. Has anyone else read them?
Also, The Dangerous Alphabet by Neil Gaiman is terrifying, and I would not recommend it for anyone under the age of 40.

I only write lists now

1. Tonight I am going to see Fleetwood Mac, so obviously I am just over the moon.
2. I got a hair cut and it is super cute.
3. I am so overwhelmed by work and school that I could fall over any second.
4. Tuesday is my 21st birthday. I got presents this weekend. My mom got me a face cake, just like on Scrubs.

a few of my favorite things

These are the only things I concern myself with lately:

1. Lady Gaga

2. PG Tips tea (decaf)

3. Law and Order: SVU

4. The Tudors


As previously mentioned, Fleetwood Mac tickets cost me $170 each. I just dropped $50 for No Doubt ($200 total, since I got some tickets for the girls at work).

No Doubt is at Fiddler's Green which makes me want to die. but I'm sure it will be fun anyway.

My mom wants to go see Conor Oberst at the Ogden in April. I am hoping it is cheaper than when I saw Bright Eyes, which was like eight million dollars.

I feel like that Cake song is about me. How do I afford my rock and roll lifestyle?